"You've Changed Things..."

"you've changed things... there's no going back..."


I often question my own sanity.  Recently, I've taken a toll on my own mind.  I've finally just felt like I needed to take down my title; everything that people saw me as... and decided I needed a change, but with this turn... I can't say that it helped everything.  My emotions are running ragged and distant from what I used to have.  I am happier in some ways and in others, I'm flat out depressed.  When you make something so high in your mind then, just the next day, strip it down to 3 lower levels; its almost like taking the wrecking-ball to a brand new home because you wanted to take out one story of it.  It just seems that about everything that has been branded me, not in the way you brand a piece of art; leaving your mark of success & passion that you needed to make it, no, this is the brand that you see on skin.  Like a hot coal burning the flesh as you push it further in.  That's the type of brand.  And I face you now, emotionless, gridlocked and to be echt; buried in the slough of despondence.